I wrote messages I would never send

The day you stopped being my friend

A heartfelt laughter came to an end

The day you stopped being my friend

I do not know who I will share my cigarettes with

or who will laugh at my lame jokes

I do not know who will read my poetry

and will help me take notes

of life and lessons and things in between

I do not know who would support me being vegan

and  happily eat mushrooms and beans

I do not know who would send me good morning messages

and make me feel like I am the queen

for the day you decided to stop being my friend

brought doubts discomfort and things that can’t be explained

All I can say

is  to think with a calm mind

but you would not because you hate this name of mine

I do not know till now

what made you decide I was there for just myself

believe me I did try to help

excuses and explanations are just defenses that are of no use

I hope someday you think of me

when you drink coffee and enjoy chocolate mousse

and understand that

the day you decided to stop being my friend

 For me

a lot of happy things

and funny stories came to an end