Chapter *19 * Alan Rickman,Isis and Oli’s lameness

I hated Snape all the time..his hair style,his grim look,the way he talked to Harry….but oh my god J.K Rowling wrote the most twisted love story of all times thanks to you….when I found out Snape loved Lilly after all this time god knows how many kleenexes I had to use…..Snape thanks for making me believe in true love.

An article for you

Well this is awkward. I write when I am bleh and it seems I am bleh most of the times….but you know when I reach the height of ‘blehness’? When you ask me to clean my room. Like yes I am aware of the fact that when other people see my room they might be…

2016 :To be and not to be

To be : 1.Useful 2.Kinder 3. a love song that makes people  want to dance 4.be the person minie thought I was. <3 (Rest in peace …I miss you ) 5.be the rainbow that I have always been 6.in love with life. 7.more of a listener. 8.more serious about words. 9.someone who has the ability…

HAPPY BIRTH MONTH :)

To the man brings out my true colors. HAPPY BIRTH MONTH :) I could not be more grateful for your life,my most favourite life alive.Thankyou for always being there regardless of the weather and season. Thank you so god damn much for being awed by my yellow,hot pink,blood red and smokey grey days. You have…

CHAPTER 18: Bidhya Bhandari,Books and Bitches

I am supposed to just chill and appreciate the fact that a woman is the president of a country where only stone goddesses are regarded as powerful and flesh goddesses are considered impure for they menstruate

POTS AND PANS

They said pots and pans were all that could define my potential little did they know their words were prisons that locked me away from my progress I was less than a person More than a caged parrot their actions pricked me like pins their limits made me powerless little did they know all this…

#TRENDSETTERS

I always thought Parisians were the most trendy people on earth. All I envisioned them doing was worrying  most about the spring or fall collection being in their closet by big brands and designs.Maybe on bad days or breakups they would munch on macaroons and totally get over every single problem.After all people who look…

Uncomfortable inside blanket

I Keep thanking my excuses For The things I didn’t want to do Regret Keeps reminding me that I could have been You.

Back and forth

Some of us Have more past than future Noone knows If that’s fortunate Or less.

What you do when you judge

I always like to write about being non-judgemental but sometimes I cant be what I write. A friend of mine asked me today what I meant when I wrote that judging is the worst thing a human being could do to another human being. Well I am writing this for you so that now you…

bullets

I aim my smile at you I miss it every time…. you look away not knowing you have missed a bullet you aim your eyes at no one in particular I wish it was me all the time you stand there unaware that your eyes are guns

Chapter 17 :Intelligence,Individuality and India

A lot of us are told to measure ourselves based on how other people measure us. But we are never told that human beings are not here to be measured or else we would just have been numbers instead of names and we could have been maths instead of memories.We are also told not to…

Life

Dear Life I am not supposed to live you anymore I am supposed to understand and get by I am supposed to treasure a ring instead of acceptance and love I am supposed to fear society instead of being a part of it I should probably just grow up and give my best to someone…

QUESTION MARKS

As a curious little girl,I was told to not as “too many” questions because “decent women are not bold What if I’d become a question mark instead of being a cautious,delicate woman? Men are majestic and entitled to remark while opinions make women less human but then again…. which woman knows what being treated as…

The Process

I will buy a piece of land Build a concrete box over it Look for my freedom there and call it ‘mine’ I will exchange my dreams For fake appreciation and a lot of dime I will refuse to believe in stars let everyone know that it’s just expensive stones that shine I will put…

Chapter 16 :Game of thrones..Anderson Cooper and Earth Day

I am 22 years old and I do not care at all about the fact that Anderson Cooper is gay…..his choices does not make him any less charming…he is still fine as fuck and watching him just makes my day.Gay,Lesbian,Straight or whatever…a human being is a human being…and there is nothing in the world…no amount…

flawless

Of course you are flawless No doubt about that Because You are not human to begin with

Why I never want a husband like Ram

If you are wondering who Ram is you are not Hindu….Ram is the  man of Hindus he is THE MAN Noone can be manlier than Ram ever!!! Like what hasn’t Ram done ?? Ram picked up the Shiva dhanus like it was a toothpick ,he went into the wild for fourteen years and survived because…

why dont you deal with it?

she ties infinity in her head like hair strands with a rubber band that almost puts things to place she knows they only know what you reveal yet does not care showing all she knows  does not even bother becoming friends with ”them” because friends make the worst enemies she remembers you and all that…

Chapter 15

This is the time I think I am not capable of any human relationship.I am not meant for nothing….because I am nothing. Things get screwed up easily,and there is no hope of getting better….things just get worse…and just when I think it could not get any worse than that….someone surprises me out of the blue…and…

Gender

You tell me not to spread my legs if I do  end up being  something wrong I don’t even ‘do’ something wrong I am ”wrong” but if I dont How will I cover  distances? How will universe start? How will you know how art feels like when it pumps your blood? How will you ever…

chapter 12

I miss my freinds.I miss myself when I was with them.I miss being stupid and positive….I miss smiling and everything in between.I used to laugh with my roommate till my stomach hurt every single day…and here smiling is  a pain in the ass. I cant even curse…cos that is not what decent girls do…decent girls…

slow typing in a dark room

I wish the darkness inspired me to be the moon or even a firefly would be more than fine but I am surrounded by so much of it that I don’t remember what it is and what is mine I wish I was a poem born from pain or even a paragraph about how it…

distances

Whatever you say is ”fairly valid” whatever I feel is not Whatever I have I need to ”let go” and whatever you say … comes with a full stop.

Reasons

When it started…there was no need for it everything that happened came naturally…without explanations or reasons or anything valid We did not start for anything.. we just started…just like that….knowing when we would return Now we are at that point where everything we do needs a reason to take the next big step you need…

CHAPTER 7

It takes less than Rs 20 for me to cover the distance that transforms me from Tukku to Digital Marketing Manager whose designation is a communications assistant  because a fresh graduate is not supposed to be in a senior post. In that journey of around 20 mins,on days I forget my earphones home I listen…

CHAPTER 3

The reason I write is because it is my religion…this is how I pray…this is how my prayers are answered….this is how God exists for me and this is how I find my calm…this is how I heal myself. It has been working to some extent because I am this ball of expression and I…

CHAPTER 2 :

Aastha Tamang Maskey’s songs have been saving me for the past few days and  she is not even aware of  how she is changing my life :) That is the best part of being an artist and expressing yourself truly you know….you never know what you do might change who how….that is beautiful ….its extraordinary…

CHAPTER 1

I am 22 years old and I am having a major quarter life crisis.I am not ashamed to admit this and by no way does this mean I am losing the game.I have not given up on life.I am not a grey dustball that needs to be thrown into the garbage bin….I am just lost…..and…

what it was

You were not my escape You were not my excuse You were my reason but it does not matter anymore

CHAPTER 20: RAPE ,RELIGION AND RAINBOWS

So yet again there was another rape case of a 19 year old  who was brutally murdered with a head injury.This incident was recorded February 2016. Slow clap to all the men who think that women should be raped if they go out at night,wear provoking clothes and work for themselves.I would not even spit…

too much love

Just because you did not hurt people intentionally does not mean you did not hurt them. Accidents do not become invalid if the consequences are invisible. I did not want to hurt you and you did not either.But when has life ever been about what we have wanted. I keep on trying to dodge the…

PROMISES

I have been holding lit cigarettes between my fingers hoping to feel the burnt of my heart in my lungs I  have been trying to forget the smell that lingers hoping to forget how heavenly you felt in my toungue I have been walking leaving a trial of ashes behind wherever I go hoping that…